What is it that I need today?

What am I looking for in this moment, these moments?

My eyes were opened this morning and the first thought in my head was, ‘I did it! I survived another night. Thank you!’

I didn’t die in my sleep. I wasn’t captured and threatened. I didn’t even go to sleep with an empty stomach. I went to sleep as a rich man and woke as one too.

So this morning, I woke with Gratitude. Like I try to wake every morning.

But then what? What comes after the gratitude and the realization that, ‘I’m awake. Now let’s do stuff.’?

Then it came to me. There are things I want to accomplish in my life. I’m not guaranteed more moments than anyone else. I’m not given any less than anyone, today. We all start with a clean slate. The same 24 hour period. So what is it I want to do?

Sure, I can chill on Netflix and play the latest video game for hours like nobody’s business. I can look outside and think, ‘It’s cold, cloudy, wet and I’mma just hang out in my comfies indoors.’ (Thanks a lot San Diego June Gloom). I can pull up Doordash or Grubhub and order something yummy and request it be dropped off at my door so I don’t even have to talk to the delivery driver.

Or…..

I can go to the gym, feel grateful I can move my body, and proud I can lift something heavy and put it back down again. I can listen to a podcast and feel grateful I can hear, learn and apply the wisdom I’m being taught. I can meditate and feel grateful I can breathe. I can open my computer and feel grateful I can see the screen with my eyes and type these words with hands and fingers that work. I can chew. I can play music. I can write. I can go outside and feel the cool air.

I can. I can. I can do so much, because I can.

Thank you for this day.